Dear Dad –
The other day I was reflecting back on this crazy year of 2020. The things that occurred that I had no clue would occur. The choices I would make and the choices I would need to make about the kids’ schooling. The decision of closing a door even though it was hard to tell a few good friends. It has been one year since I made a decision to close the door on my leadership position in a direct selling/network marketing career and see what window of opportunity the good Lord opened. Sometimes we cannot even see the window when we decide to close the door. However, we can feel the nudge that there is something more out there for us. Dad, thank you for teaching me that life is short. I know you and Mom told me often and I can also remember as a recent college graduate thinking you two were a little crazy. I felt as though I had so much time, almost as though it was never-ending. Now as a 42 year old and a mom of two life is speeding by. This feeling and our talk about your “what if’s” in the hospital made the decision easier for me to close the door. Sometimes we just decide to stay in our comfort zone and not seek other opportunities. We find it is easier to keep the door open rather than look for a window to crawl through. However, sometimes through that window we experience more joy than we thought we could. In crawling through the window we discover a talent that was not being utilized to its fullest potential. In crawling through the window I discovered how different the crazy time of COVID could have been if I would have just decided to keep the door open. In crawling through the window I decided to walk by faith, not by sight. Again another trait you taught me Dad. There were so many times you could have chosen to let your fears be bigger than your faith. I pray today Dad that if there are other windows to crawl through that I feel the nudge, I stand up tall, I set my shoulders back, and I face the unknown. You and Mom taught me how to just push through even when the outcome was unknown. I might as well just keep adding to the resume, right Dad. I wonder what will come in 2021. All I know is that I am just going to keep my eyes open for any windows the good Lord might want me to crawl through, so I can keep making you proud Dad. Love and miss you.